all of a sudden i feel an emptiness in my heart, feels like it's raining in my heart.  i guess its just one of those days when jaz gets moody...hmm... im starting to ask myself, where am i going to be in 5 or 10 years time.....  then i realised, i still don't have an answer to that question... but then again..... what is living? have a job, earn money, buy a car, buy a house, fall in love, get married, have some kids, grow old, then die? is that living? i wouldn't have a clue. do you?

life...what's life? are we doomed to a never-ending routine until we breathe out last?This is a simple yet complicated question that no one could ever come up with a satisfactory answer that fits everyone perfectly.

To some people, life is getting good grades in school and landing a dream job, while some sees life as complete when they had finally found their destined one and live happily every after...There are people who are born with illness haunting them all their lives, they would just be satisfied if they are able to breath and live another normal, peaceful day. "Where would you be in the next 5 years" These sort of questions scare us because as much as we try to control how we want life to be, there's always the unexpected.

so what's life to me?? i don't know!! i just know i'm definitely not enjoying my life currently. i believed i've changed for worse and it has been out of my control.... i just wish i could get the "old waiyee" back!!!

Whether life is an everlasting routine or unpredictable in its course, we still need to live on. but i do hope that i'll continue to look forward to this plain concept called life (honestly i'm not currently)!! i guess i really need to get out of my very predictable boring stupid life that i'm living through now... 生命万岁??hahaha....